An honest account

2024. 26 May. Sunday
The first thing that comes to mind – lately – is to listen not to who says what, but to what they do. We have a business owner who talks a good game, I like him, but when I look at what he actually does, I don’t see anything. All that happened was that the owner thanked me for helping her father.
By the way, how was my day? None. Work – sleep – work. I was working in the kitchen until half past eleven in the morning, after that I only had pretend activities. I realised I could do more in the kitchen. For example, I could help with the serving, but that’s where I’m not motivated enough. In fact, I don’t have a job in the kitchen, this kitchen could run without me, the cooks would just be tired. I’m wiping the walls of the fridge until 2:30. We had fifty guests at noon, instead of the usual five. I did almost the same thing in the evening, I could have done without. I feel that if I have nothing to do, it’s not really my problem. However, I can see that this is not good.
What was good about today? In the afternoon I slept in; in the evening I made nice desserts.
What was bad about today? I feel useless. Why am I grateful? I have a normal salary, I’m not tired, I haven’t done a bad job.
What about tomorrow? The same. I help where I can. Next time I’m not busy during serving, I’ll keep an eye on the cooks.